Another year in New York

How time flies. The more I learn, the less I like humanity. I realize Jay is my soulmate or as close as I will get in this life time. I almost ended up with a sociopath. I need to be more careful with who I share my time and energy, because even if i wanted someone to be a part of my life, that person was self destructive and self serving. Anyone who seeks to hurt others in order to be happy with themselves is a jerk. History repeats itself so it is time to break the cycle i have created.  People make up lies about me, tell themselves things to make their pathetic lives better. Does it make others feel better to abuse me? It just shows me what kind of person they are. No matter how popular you become, if you hurt people just to be happy, then you truly are a nobody.  As for my beliefs, I am a Buddhist Pagan, imperfect, flawed but in my own state of mind.